i know, haven't been here for a while again..
you know, keeping myself busy with being mommy, maid, wife, chauffeur, cook, nurse, teacher..

found a picture that describes my life, wanna see it..

so, there it is.. do you understand it?? tell me what you think it means..
see what you know of me..
I'm happy, very, exceedingly happy to tell you that Maggy started working for me today.. she seems to be a very nice lady. she used to work at a pre-school and loves little babies. so from tomorrow Tamar will be staying with her at home. and since the other two are on school holidays now, they are also staying at home.. so that means, peace, glorious, quiet, blissful peace for mommy

that is probably why you getting to hear from me again today..

we watched an amazing movie over the weekend, you can check out the trailer here, it's really sweet. it's called The Martian Child and we enjoyed it very much. it has an interesting Martian dance that my children tried to copy, to our great amusement.
I'm listening to the music from Wilna's blog!! the scrap blog.. and it's really cool. a little bit of everything..
talk soon

m

lekker lag

for all the English folk that read this blog, the title means 'having a good old laugh'
last night was youth.. and since God has not yet given me my amazing Iveco comby (small bus more to the point) i go fetch the kids in my big little bakkie trucky thingy
so last night for the first time ever, i had a truck load of girls on the back!!
and you know a bunch of teenage girls.. the screaming around every corner, the concern about their hair.. and then.. the rain!! Yes, these poor girls, they were on the back of an open bakkie, driving at full speed through the rain! and i felt so bad for them. i started screaming about as loudly as they were screaming. My friend Ane, who went with me to pick them up was laughing more at me than at the load of screaming girls! and I'm incoherent, thinking, maybe i should stop (in the middle of the rain) not knowing what i want to stop for, but just stop!! and the more I'm screaming and putting on breaks and then speeding up again, the more my friend is trying to to get me to switch on the windshield wipers!!! can you believe, i 4got to switch them on! i was so worried and screaming and calling Shawn to tell him that we are caught in this terrible weather, that i completely forgot to switch on the wipers.. it was so funny!! and the girls, well, they just loved it! they were laughing and screaming and making jokes and it was awesome! God truely is good!
after cel i tried to organise lifts in cars for them, but they all insisted on driving on the back of the bakkie!!
we laughed so much that our stomachs hurt, our mouthes couldn't close and our hearts were as light as a feather.
and on top of it all we had an amazing cel last night.. i had the pleasure of leading a girl to the Lord and assure her that her life in now in the hand of the One who made Everything..

that life..

hi there!

i don't think I've ever been happier to come to work. at work things almost feel like they are under control. i don't kid myself by believing that feeling, but i do ignore it easier than at home!!

my domestic worker from the last 5 years resigned over the weekend.. for anyone who has never had a domestic worker, that is like in so what?? but for me!!! it is driving insane time!! Kathrine looked after Tamar in the day time and evenings she would stay with our children if we needed to go somewhere! and then of coarse there is the convenient she cleaned, washed, ironed, cleaned, washed, ironed!!

so now I'm the mommy everything.. the cleaner, maker, baker, driver, planner, mover, healer, fixer..
but now it's tuesday and things are better.. my house is acctually in order!! it looks so nice! and i'm proud of me! maybe this is not an altogether bad thing. but we realised we'll need someone full time again, as we have no-one to look after the kids over holidays. anyway, it'll work out, you just wait and see

on sunday night i had one of those crack down moments. you know, the ones where you not just angry at people and situations, but angry at God for not showing Himself strong. Not jumping in and just doing everything i want Him to do, not just being God in my life.. one of those times when you go to a place where no-one but God can hear you and then you just scream! i do always feel better after a good screaming! so then i come to the realization that it truely is not about me and it's not about what will work for me and how my life will be made beter if God does as He is told..
it's about Him, about Him, about Him, about Him.
read Wilna's blog today, her blog gives me such courage, such hope! i love reading her thoughts, feelings and just her he{art}.
will talk soon